征兆

当你心里的不好的OS越来越多，没办法说出来的时候，
这证明着心病快要形成的征兆..
当你有一天一直感动到委屈，找不到原因，也解决不了
这只能证明是你的问题了
对，这一切是我的问题

我的问题

a wish that hope can come true

finally, emo for few months finally got a lil bit feedback from that fella.
luckily, i still can feel i'm useful.

hope that all of our "payments" can get a good result.
and just hope that no one spoils all the things that we've done and paid for this event.

p/s: my boy is not here. though he's coming back tomorrow. but still, missing him now.. ;p *shy*

疏离感

最近感觉到跟朋友之间的距离感越来越严重了
不知道是自己的问题还是别人的问题
有时候就是真的觉得不要在意了
但是还是不能，总是会在乎

别人说的不无道理
朋友只是过客罢了
如果要说真的，朋友只是对彼此有帮助，他（她）才会在你的身边逗留
一直很挣扎，不知道应该怎样去调整自己的心态
女人就是这样
婆婆妈妈，优柔寡断
残忍的事是不想去碰，不想去面对的
很麻烦

靠感性生活真的很辛苦
有时候会想，人到底能不能真的逼到自己理智起来
应该很难吧，对女人来说

应该不要去顾虑他们了
自己做自己的事就好
不要去在乎别人什么，别人用什么样的眼睛看，什么样的心态对待，什么样的想法想

自己一个也可以生活，不要再想着朋友跟自己的难处纠结着了..
至少现在，自己并不是一个人..还有另一个人会为自己想，爱着自己
就把心思放在他身上吧.. （希望不会都太迟）

small problem happened

well, just ignore the title coz i don't know what to put on the diary's title.. haha

alright, i'm back to here is just wanted to tell out my feeling.. maybe it is a trouble?
sometimes couldn't think two side is a trouble? need to consider what situation in ma....
confusing..
people said girls are troublesome animal..
but for me, sometimes, guys also the same kind and sometimes like a girl-----> so difficult to guess too.. haha.. guys, am i right? XD
maybe i'm a lil bit boyish..
for me sometimes be simple to me is a good things. i'm not the kind of always will think deep..deep... deeply...
had a small argument with my boy last few days ago.
don't know it was whose problem. but quite sad..
small things also can be a bad "aura" between us..
become awkward.. not good not good..
well, it is very true that human are need to be communicated.
especially in a relationship.
once u in a relationship, u can't just think one side but both sides.
conclude: is just, in which ways u be, single or couple, both ways you also need to be positive.

human.. human.. can you be simple? haisshh..

令人感到可悲的心态

我真的得好好反省一下
最近的心态真的很有问题
有时真的会对自己感到可怕可悲

不知道为什么，参加一个社团可以令人改变到这么可悲
是因为人的问题吗？
不信任导致自己成天紧张，紧张的氛围令人感到太过杞人忧天
实在是可悲

我真的感到很累了，也很后悔..
现在我真的不能伪装着说我还是很喜欢这个社团了
我不能伪装笑着说我喜欢它
越伪装越害怕，越伪装越难过越难受

默契一年也培养不到，那还能做到团队精神吗？
一盘散沙还能伪装信任吗？

这么久没来这里，这里已经是我的忍无可忍，无处可诉苦的时候拿来诉苦的避难所了

这样成长的方式，真的很残忍但也得忍着过去继续做双面人